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My story: Letting it out & being myself (Cinimin)

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I was obsessed with things, like I remember one time I got really nervous because I thought my neck was dirty. So I like, I really scrubbed really hard, and I did that for like a couple of days and stuff. And I gave myself a bruise and someone asked me what happened and I lied. So that's another symptom for me, lying, not telling the truth. I guess seeing things that aren't there, I saw shadows and I remember I googled that.
So that's another thing, googling things. That was a symptom for me. Googling these awkward, really awkward things.

"I am positive now because I'm not symptomatic and I'm not going through psychosis anymore. I'm okay."

I am what I am. I'm just paranoid. So, or, you know, sometimes I'm not. So like I said, talking to the shrink, letting that out with someone who's a professional, because talking to my family is not it. So like, letting it out into the world is where it's at for me right now. I'll find a place where I can let me be myself. So the internship, I have people there who are also struggling with like a mental illness or maybe not struggling but they've been diagnosed so I talk to them, they talk to me.

I am working towards a master's degree. I have a great support system with the internship.It feels nice to be validated. I am positive now because I'm not symptomatic and I'm not going through psychosis anymore. I'm okay.

 

 

 

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